Irrational Fear

So in 24 hours I will being my CrossFit competition "career" by competing in the "Festivus" competition in Hartford Connecticut.  I'm excited but cautiously nervous.  See, I have an irrational fear of coming in last.  I can live with not coming in first, but to come in last is just plain scary to me. It's not like having the slowest time at my own box, I know those people, but to embarrass myself at a competition...scary.

Not helping that fear is that the WODs are very strength-centric and none play into my strengths (double-unders, running, box jumps...).  This happens at CrossFit events, you can't choose your workouts, you have to be ready for anything so I have no complaints.  But even if I finish and get to the shot put first, I still have to find a way to launch a 12 pound ball further than guys that will likely be stronger than me.  In the clean, I have to hope my form and adrenalin can get me a few extra pounds.  I'd love to be okay with myself going out and doing my best (which I will do) but what if my best is the worst of those there?   It will be VERY tough for my ego to take that.

Does anyone actually believe this? Cause I sure as hell don't.

With all that said, I'm wayyyyy too cocky to actually think I will come in last.  I know I can compete with others that have been doing crossfit for a similar amount of time as me.  I've come a long long way in the past 7 months (wow, is that all it's been?).  I also know that adrenalin will be flowing, the other competitors will be screaming me on (which helps more than most would imagine) and if I take the time to warm up properly I'll do fairly well.   I fully expect to PR the 1000m row and the clean.

I should also note here that I over think EVERYTHING.

WOD

Strength/Skill:  Handstand practice.  I pulled out 11 full hand stand push-ups!  no abmat needed...but did have to Kip them.

WOD

15-13-11-9-7-5  SDLHP and lateral shuffle.

Time: 9:12 (95lbs)

Unfaithful

From across the room you see them.  As you begin your approach, you realize that you shouldn't be doing this, you don't care though.  The thought of putting it in your mouth is all that matters.  All thoughts of what you should be doing are gone, the only thing going through your mind is lustful thoughts.  Then...it touches your lips and a feeling of euphoria sweeps throughout your body.  You can't help but smile as you ravage what is in front of you. The sweet tastes dance in your mouth, the smell lingers in the air.  As you finish, you feel completely satisfied....

That is until guilt sets in.  Should I have done that? (prolly not)  What will happen now? (might get yelled at by your trainer)  Was it worth it? (undoubtedly yes)  Then you realize..you can't wait to do it again.

You guys know I'm talking about food here right?

Cheating on your diet is something that happens.  You can not avoid it.  In fact, I will argue that you SHOULD cheat on your diet.  If you love a certain food, then by all means enjoy it.  But what you have to do is not over indulge.  If ice cream is your vice, then get a small cone, or a small sundae.  There is no need to get a 3 scoop cone and then follow it up with a large blizzard (who does that? ;-)   Use the food as a reward for putting in a  lot of effort for the week.  This isn't modern little league where you get a "participation trophy", which is just crap, you should only get a reward if you EARN it.  If you tell yourself that, then you will likely put in more effort so then the reward tastes even sweeter.

WOD

Dynamic Warm-up
WOD:  7 minutes to find max balance snatch; 3 min hand stand walk; 2 min max double unders

Dynamic warm up was an 800m run, 500m row then a lot of stretching
WOD:  It was the first time doing the balance snatch so there was a bit of a learning curve here but I got 105 lbs.  I think I could have done more but just ran out of time.

It was also the first time doing the hand stand walk.  That was ummm..fun?  I did like it actually and I really wanna practice it a lot more.  I made it 41 feet.

Double unders I am starting to do a LOT better with.  I broke the 100 barrier and got 105 in 2 minutes.


DIET


I am reintroducing the diet section here because it helps me track it a lot better.  I cheated yesterday, but for good reason.  Karen and I went to Musikfest and trying to find healthy food there is near impossible.  Regardless, I did find steak on a stick at the "Made in Brazil" food booth.  It was delicious.  I followed it up with a soft pretzel and then a root beer float.  I did well with lunch and breakfast though.  3 eggs, apple, plum, chicken garden salad, and some cashews.  So all in all...I'm chalking it up as a win.